Sypnosis: Split-personalities are't helpful when you just get into uni, your thoughts linger to your ex-girlfriend and you've got a roomie which crosses your mind. Roman's consiousness isn't better.
Status: Complete
Chapters: Prologue Chapter 1 Chapter 2 Chapter 3 Chapter 4 Chapter 5 Chapter 6 Chapter 7 Chapter 8 Chapter 9 Chapter 10 Chapter 11 Chapter 12 Chapter 13 Chapter 14 Chapter 15 Chapter 16 Chapter 17 Chapter 18 Chapter 19 Chapter 20 Chapter 21 Chapter 22 Chapter 23 Chapter 24 Chapter 25 Chapter 26 Chapter 27 Chapter 28 Chapter 29 Chapter 30 Chapter 31 Chapter 32 Chapter 33 Chapter 34 Chapter 35 Fade
LGBT: Bisexual
Mental health: Split-personalities and other disorders (sorry not spoiling :))
Triggers: gore, mentions suicide, self-harm, abuse.
Back Story/Additional Notes (2014): I wrote this back when I was 15, which sounds fucking weird because that was… nearly five years ago. And with the whole fishing out everything and looking at everything all over again, it's just weird to see how my gender identity was always with me, really. And papercut itself is an important story as it happened whilst doing an exercise in Creative Writing, I had to create a character and then later I believe do an exercise of him having a dialogue with someone else.
Looking back, it's weird because I'm currently blonde and I'm genderfluid and I happen to have a lot of male characters which are blonde and kind of my biggest stories were always with males.
I still really love it and means a lot, as it was I guess a radical change of style and it was around the time when I despited my writing for being feminine and I wanted to write like a bloke, I was really obsessed with the thought, I wanted to capture males perfectly and I was always worried what if I never would, that my style would remain feminine and a funny thing was that when my dad read it, he told me no bloke would watch Love, Actually which is mentioned in the novel and well, I guess he was wrong. I still rewatch Sex and the City if it's on air. And I think looking back all the males I've written were pretty much myself trying to let my gender out (male of course, as I was female in life).
And I guess if I were to meet my fifteen year old self, I'd just tell myself that you do write the best males and that they are fucking masculine and lovely.
Also I really despised writing female characters as they seemed to be shallow to me, which makes it more bizarre now because when I'm male I'm pretty much quite gay and that's how it remains, I hold no attraction to women besides Callie, who is my partner. And Papercut holds some really really strong homoerotism which then ends up well, go read it, the main character is bisexual and the whole Roman/Norman relationship fascinated me to no end.
Also this was the first story I had desperately tried to advertise and show, it was y'know THE ONE in my head and I had shown it to Callie, before we were dating and she was mind blown by it, saying that she never read anything like it and she still holds her views dear and to this day she is the first one who reads the stories first.
And also looking back at all the stories which I've written from male point of view, it's interesting to see how I with the characters discover my homosexuality, both male and female.
Status: Complete
Chapters: Prologue Chapter 1 Chapter 2 Chapter 3 Chapter 4 Chapter 5 Chapter 6 Chapter 7 Chapter 8 Chapter 9 Chapter 10 Chapter 11 Chapter 12 Chapter 13 Chapter 14 Chapter 15 Chapter 16 Chapter 17 Chapter 18 Chapter 19 Chapter 20 Chapter 21 Chapter 22 Chapter 23 Chapter 24 Chapter 25 Chapter 26 Chapter 27 Chapter 28 Chapter 29 Chapter 30 Chapter 31 Chapter 32 Chapter 33 Chapter 34 Chapter 35 Fade
LGBT: Bisexual
Mental health: Split-personalities and other disorders (sorry not spoiling :))
Triggers: gore, mentions suicide, self-harm, abuse.
Back Story/Additional Notes (2014): I wrote this back when I was 15, which sounds fucking weird because that was… nearly five years ago. And with the whole fishing out everything and looking at everything all over again, it's just weird to see how my gender identity was always with me, really. And papercut itself is an important story as it happened whilst doing an exercise in Creative Writing, I had to create a character and then later I believe do an exercise of him having a dialogue with someone else.
Looking back, it's weird because I'm currently blonde and I'm genderfluid and I happen to have a lot of male characters which are blonde and kind of my biggest stories were always with males.
I still really love it and means a lot, as it was I guess a radical change of style and it was around the time when I despited my writing for being feminine and I wanted to write like a bloke, I was really obsessed with the thought, I wanted to capture males perfectly and I was always worried what if I never would, that my style would remain feminine and a funny thing was that when my dad read it, he told me no bloke would watch Love, Actually which is mentioned in the novel and well, I guess he was wrong. I still rewatch Sex and the City if it's on air. And I think looking back all the males I've written were pretty much myself trying to let my gender out (male of course, as I was female in life).
And I guess if I were to meet my fifteen year old self, I'd just tell myself that you do write the best males and that they are fucking masculine and lovely.
Also I really despised writing female characters as they seemed to be shallow to me, which makes it more bizarre now because when I'm male I'm pretty much quite gay and that's how it remains, I hold no attraction to women besides Callie, who is my partner. And Papercut holds some really really strong homoerotism which then ends up well, go read it, the main character is bisexual and the whole Roman/Norman relationship fascinated me to no end.
Also this was the first story I had desperately tried to advertise and show, it was y'know THE ONE in my head and I had shown it to Callie, before we were dating and she was mind blown by it, saying that she never read anything like it and she still holds her views dear and to this day she is the first one who reads the stories first.
And also looking back at all the stories which I've written from male point of view, it's interesting to see how I with the characters discover my homosexuality, both male and female.
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